ASLH

老天爺, I haven’t been in touch. I am very sorry. It should not be a matter of inspiration. Not even a habit. It should be a matter of obligation with a sense of urgency. I don’t have that. I feel so distant and you feel so invisible and far away. And yet here I am, me and my level two insight, well aware but unwilling to act on it. My heart is so weak. I’ve been suffering form brain fog for the past two months. I am lost. I do not know what to do. I need you. I need sleep but I need you.