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So why don’t we let her do it? Let her do it, since she’s got no other things going on in her life. Let her do it cause she does not need a break. She seems to enjoy it all anyway, so make her do everything that you don’t feel like doing.

I spent the entire afternoon yesterday as a panel member who interviewed interns who were applying for the hospital.

Hold up.

That single sentence alone deserves a moment of silence.

It was one of the most braindead activities I’ve ever engaged in as a training resident in this institution. Don’t get me wrong. The interns were darlings. I loved them all. But why did it feel like role playing in GCP all over again? Except I wasted an entire afternoon seated beside Bob and the proximity alone, coupled with the need to keep my pent up rage was making my brain short-circuit.

Every moment I spent sitting in that stupid chair was making me sick. I was lucky that the interns were too innocent and contagiously happy, clearly unsuspecting of how this hospital is about to ruthlessly pluck out the stars in their eyes and vanquish the living souls from their lifeless bodies.

I hope their passion for the field stays intact.

Now to address the elephant in the room, I do not know why it had to be me covering that post again. I tried pressing back, but Anne does not even attempt to lend me a hand. While I do believe that delegation is part of the job – one cannot, for the life of her, deliver all on her own given all the dumb shit they make us do in here – it is downright unfair to delegate something simply because, well, will you look at that: she does not even have an excuse.

I am not your intern. I am not your personal assistant. I am not your secretary. I am not the department mascot. Cut it.

There is not much I can do at the moment, and clearly, even if I did, I probably would not find it in me to ignore someone who needs my help. But here’s the thing. For the most part, you don’t even need help. You just need me around cause… I don’t even know why the heck.

It’s exhausting.